Well, my oldest graduated this month and started a full time job for the summer. His first full time job. I can hardly believe he is old enough to work 40 hrs per week like a grown man would work. He is capable. His dad has always modeled a good work ethic for him. I am blown away at how quickly he has reached this point in life. He was my first baby. The one that taught me about a love that is so fierce that it is hard to explain. The one that made me want to have a whole house full of children. The one that I call the experiment child. I have learned a lot from him through the years. We have gone through all the phases of childhood with this boy and have come out on the other side. The side where he is considered to be an adult. The day that I did not want to come to fast but it did anyway. Guess what? I enjoy this stage too. I like the person he is becoming. I enjoy his company and like talking to him. Oh, I miss the little boy that he was but am really liking the man he is becoming. I am proud of him. I pray that he will always walk with the Lord. I pray that when he goes off to college in the fall  he will find a church to call his own and will continue to grow his faith.I love this boy/man. I look forward to seeing what he becomes. The Lord has great plans for him I am sure.

Green Toes

We have been teaching Matthew to mow the yard. He is getting quite good at it too. Hard for me to believe he is old enough for that but as Jon frequently reminds me he was mowing at that age. This week was Matthew's second time to mow the whole yard. He began to get frustrated trying to mow around the swing set. So I go out and help him mow around it.
        A bit later Lauren had a doctor appointment. So I grab the baby, the sippy cup, my phone, and my purse. Even have the insurance card with me. Had even managed to take Matthew to his allergy shot early that morning.  So we get to Lauren's appointment and manage to be a few minutes early. I am feeling quite accomplished to be able to pull off a busy day like that and still show up at an appointment on time and unflustered. Usually I come flying in at the last minute flustered and forgetting something.
       We did not have to wait very long before they came for us. So we are sitting in the room talking and waiting. The lighting in the room is awesome. I happen to look down at my feet and low and behold GREEN TOES! I helped Matthew mow in my sandals. Yep green toes and green toe nails. I am pretty sure everyone who saw me thought I had a strange fungus growning on my toes. It just goes to show that I will never have it all together. I will never be one of those super got it together kind of people. Oh well, I enjoy my messy fly by the seat of my pants life. It works for me.

The Rain

So glad for the pretty weather today after yesterdays rain and storms. I have never been a big fan of the rain. It is wet and gloomy and tends to leave a big muddy mess. I will say that my mom loved the rain. Seems like she said something about it making everything seem so clean. I never could figure that out. She was the type that probably would have danced in the rain and had a blast doing so. I see the rain differently now that my mom is gone. Before I thought it was a necessary evil we had to endure. Yes, I know we need rain. Sometimes it is just very inconvenient. Now? Now when it rains I take a moment and pause and smile and remember that my mom enjoyed a good rain shower. It makes me take the time reflect and try to find a little pleasure  in the rain. It gives me  pleasure to think that she may be dancing in that very rain shower in a new body that does not hurt. Maybe the rain is cleansing....cleansing for the soul and mind as well as the earth. Love ya, mom. Hope you enjoyed the rains this week.